i hope my next life i am a beloved puppy dog or a beautiful monarch butterfly or a strong magnolia tree or at last, a peculiar little girl who finally gets to be, seen when she's not shining, truly loved.
Jul 10, 2025
Jul 10, 2025 at 5:09 PM UTC
i'm done with everyone.
you hate when i need you, but
you hate it worse when i don't.
how can i win?
i don't even want to play anymore
Jul 5, 2025
Jul 5, 2025 at 7:50 PM UTC
i don't feel like the earth. i don't want to be earth. i am saturn and her rings. i'm the enormity of jupiter. i am venus, never able to be pinned down. i am not the earth, aching and dying slowly.
Jul 3, 2025
Jul 3, 2025 at 7:21 AM UTC
closure is a loaded word, isn't it?
it's like love or hate or happiness or sadness — it means something different for everyone.
some people want a saccharine ending, where all of the loose strings tie neatly into place. they want august rainstorms with long, lovely speeches and picture perfect kisses to dazzle even the coldest of hearts.
some people want an ending to end all endings. they live for the drama they can feel in their gut, that rips open their veins and reminds them they're alive. they need the adrenaline that makes their heads spin.
lastly, some people want to hold on some how, some way — whether that means being friends or best friends or acquaintances who nod at one another when they pass on crowded streets. it doesn't matter because, it's all the same. not every love story lasts, and sometimes, people are better as friends, anyway.
me? i'm not sure. my mind, with all of its erratic twists and turns, and my heart, with its snap decisions, haven't ever been in this sort of situation. i don't have any prior knowledge to what this is like, and any movies that end like this, i leave the theatre before.
i guess what i could say is, given all that happened and the way it ended, all i want is one thing —
closure.
Jul 2, 2025
Jul 2, 2025 at 11:53 PM UTC
i don't need a boyfriend. i need a therapist.
i'm not meant to be the one that got away. I'm meant to be the bullet you dodged.
i'm so yours. i'm so sorry.
Jul 2, 2025
Jul 2, 2025 at 11:41 PM UTC
So there they stood, staring one another down. It was an act of rebellion in a way, seeing something almost sacred. No one can plan for the sugar shock electric rush.
Jul 2, 2025
Jul 2, 2025 at 11:39 PM UTC
tomorrow, we duel
(yes, that is pompous to say
- but you once told me my affinity for the dramatic
was something that endeared you to me.
was that a lie, too?)
neither of you fools know quite who you are dealing with.
your mythic ***** has teeth and will bite if prompted.
i don't think you understand what i am capable of.
and i definitely know neither of you recognize how frightfully average you are.
i carved a home out of my own broken bones,
i sang with the freezing january wind,
i walked along highways with nothing to my name but a backpack and an oversized teddy bear.
you do not know half of what i could do
-- and you never will.
you're not worth it.
Jul 2, 2025
Jul 2, 2025 at 11:35 PM UTC
gotta give myself the reminder
that it's ok if i'm just like her
we all think that pretty boys are the worst
until they decide to put us in first
he couldn't bring himself to think of me
that he was too chicken to give me the truth
especially when i gave him what he wanted
why did i always give him what he wanted?
Jan 20, 2025
Jan 20, 2025 at 7:44 PM UTC
i dream in bright flashes
of blue and green and hazel
never, ever brown
until the sunday
( the holiest day )
that i looked into your eyes
and saw a galaxy in which i died to drown
Jun 8, 2021
Jun 8, 2021 at 11:08 AM UTC
i just find it funny
that two days ago — you didn't have any friends
but now that i've got one foot out the door,
i'm suddenly your best friend?
how does that make sense?
how should that make sense?
i don't suddenly matter to you,
you're just afraid of being lonely.
welcome to my world, and if
you're anything like me —
you'll get used to it.
Jan 21, 2021
Jan 21, 2021 at 3:25 AM UTC