It was like I had been attached for so long
I didn't know how to let go
Our stability was our drug test
You were my drug
I was your victim
Everyday, Mornings, Afternoons, and Nights
If I didn't get my fix I'd panic
My anxiety would kick in
Palms sweating
Heart racing
Breathes shortening
Paranoia at it's finest
"You're temporary"
"You need it, it doesn't need you"
"You're replaceable"
It gave me a high
A high that covered any feelings from the past
I'd be completely invested in it
A warm memory of nights forgotten
Either way I ignored the dangers for my own pleasures
It was still a drug
Still hazardous
Still tempting
It covered up my scars
My deep wounds of narcotics before
I played it off
Deep down the withdrawal was driving me insane
To nervous ticks
Degrading myself
To finally moving on
You found a new customer
And I finally quit
Nov 14, 2017
Nov 14, 2017 at 12:55 AM UTC
It was like I had been attached for so long
I didn't know how to let go
Our stability was our drug test
You were my drug
I was your victim
Everyday, Mornings, Afternoons, and Nights
If I didn't get my fix I'd panic
My anxiety would kick in
Palms sweating
Heart racing
Breathes shortening
Paranoia at it's finest
"You're temporary"
"You need it, it doesn't need you"
"You're replaceable"
It gave me a high
A high that covered any feelings from the past
I'd be completely invested in it
A warm memory of nights forgotten
Either way I ignored the dangers for my own pleasures
It was still a drug
Still hazardous
Still tempting
It covered up my scars
My deep wounds of narcotics before
I played it off
Deep down the withdrawal was driving me insane
To nervous ticks
Degrading myself
To finally moving on
You found a new customer
And I finally quit
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