If I loved him
If I loved him I would not cry the night away,
I would not hopelessly float in my tears.
If I loved him there would be a smile on my face,
I would not have to worry about being enough,
But that is only if I loved him.
For I know I cannot do so,
My struggles are that of his
For I know that he depends on me
My struggles are too overwhelming for him
Yet I still cannot love him
If I loved him I would bring him down
He deserves more than I can provide
If I loved him we would return to the darkness together
He deserves more than a relationship based off of a confused lie
I want to love him
I chose to love someone else
I told myself I would be better off
I chose to love the second who gave me what I thought I wanted
I told myself that I need someone who doesn’t care for my heart
Now I wish I loved him
Nov 8, 2017
Nov 8, 2017 at 3:42 PM UTC
If I loved him
If I loved him I would not cry the night away,
I would not hopelessly float in my tears.
If I loved him there would be a smile on my face,
I would not have to worry about being enough,
But that is only if I loved him.
For I know I cannot do so,
My struggles are that of his
For I know that he depends on me
My struggles are too overwhelming for him
Yet I still cannot love him
If I loved him I would bring him down
He deserves more than I can provide
If I loved him we would return to the darkness together
He deserves more than a relationship based off of a confused lie
I want to love him
I chose to love someone else
I told myself I would be better off
I chose to love the second who gave me what I thought I wanted
I told myself that I need someone who doesn’t care for my heart
Now I wish I loved him