I don’t deny delusions
not all who claim do see
but I do perceive the love drops
come from the Cosmic Tree
I ask not for perfection
far less for certainty
just adventure, moonlight, sunlight
music’s mystery
despite my fears and failings
Mother Mary, Let it Be!
Apr 21, 2019
Apr 21, 2019 at 6:39 PM UTC
She dwelt among the untrodden ways
Beside the springs of Dove,
A Maid whom there were none to praise
And very few to love:
A violet by a mossy stone
Half hidden from the eye!
—Fair as a star, when only one
Is shining in the sky.
She lived unknown, and few could know
When Lucy ceased to be;
But she is in her grave, and, oh,
The difference to me!
Apr 5, 2018
Apr 5, 2018 at 9:34 AM UTC
Anytime I smile in your direction,
I see it spread through your body like a
god **** infection.
And that makes me sick, to affect you that way
I want you to live, get lost like a stray.
Anytime I touch you, on accident or purpose,
it's like your convinced waiting for me,
is worth it.
And that makes me sick, to affect you that way
because I don't love you anymore, I don't want you to stay.
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 4:24 PM UTC
when people are in love
they often say
they simply fell
tripped over their own two feet
face forward
and into the arms of their beloved
i did more than simply fall
onto the ground of your love
you, for me
were an ocean
and i dived
headfirst
roughly
harshly
almost painfully
into the waters of “you”
i knew i could not swim
but i did so anyway
i was drowning
entangled in you
surrounded by this being of “you”
engulfed in this feeling of “you”
and i did not know what came over me
but i let myself drown
i did not try to swim back up
because if i went back to land,
releasing myself from your grasp
that would mean losing the feeling of “you”
and after
submerging into the depth
the love
the passion
of “you”
how could i ever leave?
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 4:22 PM UTC
is it possible to fall in and out of love
or do we only love once
and the rest of the time is a skewed version of that first love
or do we never love at all
for we never can truly understand what love is
falling in and out of love is a lie one tells
to cover up the fact that they never loved
or that they don't know how to love
or simply that they can never love again
Dec 20, 2017
Dec 20, 2017 at 8:34 PM UTC
You cannot tell her she's beautiful,
You cannot tell her you love her,
You cannot tell her she's your world
When she's at her best moments.
You may only tell her those things,
If you're ready for her to have those off days,
If you're ready for her to not always wear makeup,
If you're ready to deal with her mood swings,
If you're ready for her to be clingey some days and distant others,
You cannot tell her any of the pretty little comments,
Unless you can handle her
Alone at two A.M.
As she's struggling with life,
And wondering why
She is not enough to win her own internal battles
Dec 11, 2017
Dec 11, 2017 at 5:43 PM UTC
One cannot tell my tears apart from rain
The dark clouds hide my pale and sunken cheeks
And the silence in the air brings me pain
For I think of the long days, months, and weeks
Where I wished I could have been with him
The dreary, bleak light leaves my eyes searching
I walk through the puddles praying a hymn
Muttering foreign phrases, and purging
My soul of all my mistakes and regrets
The damp wind hits my face bringing comfort
Like worms I struggle through mud in distress
The sound of raindrops puts all to slumber
The air is still and all my worries cease
When rain falls my soul tries to be at peace
Dec 6, 2017
Dec 6, 2017 at 9:22 PM UTC
i watched him cry
i broke my promise
i said a stupid lie
i caused this mess.
i made him cry
i laid on his chest
i heard him ask why.
i caused this mess.
Dec 6, 2017
Dec 6, 2017 at 9:03 PM UTC
i keep thinking of the worst
wanting to stop this madness
but i always hear his voice
saying those three easy words
yet i hope i won't hear them
that way i can end it all
maybe one day, but not now.
he loves me so very much
and i love him endlessly
he is what keeps me going.
Dec 6, 2017
Dec 6, 2017 at 8:45 PM UTC
"you want the best for me
but maybe the best for me
is what's worst for you"
Nov 16, 2017
Nov 16, 2017 at 12:38 PM UTC