I get so happy I forget to keep my gaurd up..
And I let my mouth pour
o
u
t
the
p
a
r
t
s
of me that no one cares to hear
and when they land on deaf ears its like throwing away the only love I have left for myself and even others.. it feels like they are taking from this empty pit where my heart use to sit.
I should know these people aren't worth my dime but
I just want someone I can spend my time with
And
Not have to be afraid to forget as Im
f
a
l
l
i
n
g
Along
t
h
e
Words
S
p
i
l
l
i
n
g
out
but even without these same
feelings met,
Ill keep hoping they
will not add to my regret
Soon enough though
Ill be back to looking,
Searching for someone I can connect with so much it feels like fate
and not just another pointless date.
Someone who cares to listen and to understand that Ill only be as willing as they are
to find this thing called "love" that we hope is still real and hasnt been lost this past year.
I hope that they believe long enough just to stay and see what we can achieve.
But I know Im asking for too much..
Because
if there's
hope
why is it that all I can think of is
a chair.
and
some rope
Jan 1, 2017
Jan 1, 2017 at 4:43 AM UTC
I get so happy I forget to keep my gaurd up..
And I let my mouth pour
o
u
t
the
p
a
r
t
s
of me that no one cares to hear
and when they land on deaf ears its like throwing away the only love I have left for myself and even others.. it feels like they are taking from this empty pit where my heart use to sit.
I should know these people aren't worth my dime but
I just want someone I can spend my time with
And
Not have to be afraid to forget as Im
f
a
l
l
i
n
g
Along
t
h
e
Words
S
p
i
l
l
i
n
g
out
but even without these same
feelings met,
Ill keep hoping they
will not add to my regret
Soon enough though
Ill be back to looking,
Searching for someone I can connect with so much it feels like fate
and not just another pointless date.
Someone who cares to listen and to understand that Ill only be as willing as they are
to find this thing called "love" that we hope is still real and hasnt been lost this past year.
I hope that they believe long enough just to stay and see what we can achieve.
But I know Im asking for too much..
Because
if there's
hope
why is it that all I can think of is
a chair.
and
some rope
Another lonley New years spent missing someone..
I know its kind of a sad poem and maybe even over dramitic but its 4am here and Im dealing with trying to figure out how to open up to people so i dont have to feel isolated anymore, I watch the people around me and they do it so easily making friends and finding the person they want to spend their life with but I cant get past the fear. How do you even begin to learn to be open with people? How do I remember to let someone in when ive avoided just that for more than 2 years.. I dont know whats worse my fear of being alone or my fear of trusting again...but I do know this is what I want to change for my 2017.
And of course everything feels soo exaggerated since I havent slept yet.
Wish me luck
for I will need it this upcoming year.
