These demons that live inside of me
The voices that create these things
These nightmares
The things that keep me up at night
The thing that's makes me scream and shout
I see people
I talk to people
I walk with them everyday
But yet, I couldn't be more lonely
It troubles me that I can't talk
I can't say a word that goes on inside of my heart
Inside my heart it's a scary place
There hides a demon
Two if you must
And they wither and they fight
If I tell
These demons will surely know
They will make me feel so much pain
Why could I tell?
People won't understand
They will call me crazy
They say it's a stage that I'm going through
But why has it been going on for years?
I have been asking the same thing for years
Maybe it's because I can't let it go
This pain that shrivels inside of me
It's what comforts me at night
The tears that fall
It is wiped away by these demons
If I am lonely
They come
Wrapping their invisible arms around me
Holding my helpless hand
I scream
Why can't they leave me alone?
These demons
They are always there
Clouding my thoughts, my judgements
I say it's my conscience
But is it?
My friends can tell something is wrong
They ask me if I am okay
I say I'm fine, just tired
I do smile sometimes
I even laugh
And that laugh and smile is true
It's true because its keeping the demons away
But then soon I am alone
And my laughter dies down
My smile fades
The demons walk back in
And they whisper, did you miss me?
Then I realize something that I have known for a while
I am lost
I am helpless
And the only thing that truly comforts me
Are my demons inside of me
May 24, 2016
May 24, 2016 at 10:57 PM UTC
These demons that live inside of me
The voices that create these things
These nightmares
The things that keep me up at night
The thing that's makes me scream and shout
I see people
I talk to people
I walk with them everyday
But yet, I couldn't be more lonely
It troubles me that I can't talk
I can't say a word that goes on inside of my heart
Inside my heart it's a scary place
There hides a demon
Two if you must
And they wither and they fight
If I tell
These demons will surely know
They will make me feel so much pain
Why could I tell?
People won't understand
They will call me crazy
They say it's a stage that I'm going through
But why has it been going on for years?
I have been asking the same thing for years
Maybe it's because I can't let it go
This pain that shrivels inside of me
It's what comforts me at night
The tears that fall
It is wiped away by these demons
If I am lonely
They come
Wrapping their invisible arms around me
Holding my helpless hand
I scream
Why can't they leave me alone?
These demons
They are always there
Clouding my thoughts, my judgements
I say it's my conscience
But is it?
My friends can tell something is wrong
They ask me if I am okay
I say I'm fine, just tired
I do smile sometimes
I even laugh
And that laugh and smile is true
It's true because its keeping the demons away
But then soon I am alone
And my laughter dies down
My smile fades
The demons walk back in
And they whisper, did you miss me?
Then I realize something that I have known for a while
I am lost
I am helpless
And the only thing that truly comforts me
Are my demons inside of me
