I am not alone.
but I am sitting here with no company to keep
and so I feel lonely
I am not ugly.
but still I stare at this reflection as if it will change
and so I don't feel all that pretty
I am not stupid.
but here I am questioning what the hell is wrong with me
and so I feel inferior
I am not crazy.
but here I am.
and again.
I am questioning everything that is me
from the fabric I am wearing to the very fabric of my being
I am laying powder and sprouting mountains
I am surrounding myself with negativity
and somehow I am feeling so alive when I know I shouldn't be
I am not happy.
and I can say everything that I am not
but I can not figure out what I am feeling
I am not okay.
But my heart is beating
and so I keep trying
Jul 18, 2015
Jul 18, 2015 at 12:43 AM UTC
I am not alone.
but I am sitting here with no company to keep
and so I feel lonely
I am not ugly.
but still I stare at this reflection as if it will change
and so I don't feel all that pretty
I am not stupid.
but here I am questioning what the hell is wrong with me
and so I feel inferior
I am not crazy.
but here I am.
and again.
I am questioning everything that is me
from the fabric I am wearing to the very fabric of my being
I am laying powder and sprouting mountains
I am surrounding myself with negativity
and somehow I am feeling so alive when I know I shouldn't be
I am not happy.
and I can say everything that I am not
but I can not figure out what I am feeling
I am not okay.
But my heart is beating
and so I keep trying
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