KittyMarie
Bismarck, ND
I write slam/spoken word poetry mostly however I tend to dabble in other forms of poetry and writing from time to time. / I am quirky. I have anxiety. and I have one of the biggest hearts in the world. / I write primarily because it helps relieve my stress and get me through the tough times in my life. I write to get my emotions out to make sure I don't bottle anything up. It's because of this that my pieces will often be dark and at times depressing. / Just know that in general I am a happy chick with a good life, good friends, and a good attitude. Shitty things have and sometimes still do happen to me but name one person who hasn't had to be strong or work through a problem. / I am just me. I am good and sometimes I am bad. On the surface I am basic but soon you'll see how complex I really am. I am just living. / And I'm not afraid who sees.
I am not alone.
but I am sitting here with no company to keep
and so I feel lonely
I am not ugly.
but still I stare at this reflection as if it will change
and so I don't feel all that pretty
I am not stupid.
but here I am questioning what the hell is wrong with me
and so I feel inferior
I am not crazy.
but here I am.
and again.
I am questioning everything that is me
from the fabric I am wearing to the very fabric of my being
I am laying powder and sprouting mountains
I am surrounding myself with negativity
and somehow I am feeling so alive when I know I shouldn't be
I am not happy.
and I can say everything that I am not
but I can not figure out what I am feeling
I am not okay.
But my heart is beating
and so I keep trying
Jul 18, 2015
Jul 18, 2015 at 12:43 AM UTC