KittyMarie
Bismarck, ND
I write slam/spoken word poetry mostly however I tend to dabble in other forms of poetry and writing from time to time. / I am quirky. I have anxiety. and I have one of the biggest hearts in the world. / I write primarily because it helps relieve my stress and get me through the tough times in my life. I write to get my emotions out to make sure I don't bottle anything up. It's because of this that my pieces will often be dark and at times depressing. / Just know that in general I am a happy chick with a good life, good friends, and a good attitude. Shitty things have and sometimes still do happen to me but name one person who hasn't had to be strong or work through a problem. / I am just me. I am good and sometimes I am bad. On the surface I am basic but soon you'll see how complex I really am. I am just living. / And I'm not afraid who sees.
Tell me you know how it feels... To be sent into a downward spiral. To be controlled by pills. To have minimal control over yourself. To not feel happy in your own body. These 'clichés' are uncontrollably perpetuated by the society we live in. Annoying. Attention seeking. If only you truly understood...
-F.T
Jul 19, 2015
Jul 19, 2015 at 8:00 PM UTC
I am not alone.
but I am sitting here with no company to keep
and so I feel lonely
I am not ugly.
but still I stare at this reflection as if it will change
and so I don't feel all that pretty
I am not stupid.
but here I am questioning what the hell is wrong with me
and so I feel inferior
I am not crazy.
but here I am.
and again.
I am questioning everything that is me
from the fabric I am wearing to the very fabric of my being
I am laying powder and sprouting mountains
I am surrounding myself with negativity
and somehow I am feeling so alive when I know I shouldn't be
I am not happy.
and I can say everything that I am not
but I can not figure out what I am feeling
I am not okay.
But my heart is beating
and so I keep trying
Jul 18, 2015
Jul 18, 2015 at 12:43 AM UTC