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i could have done something different i could have done something better i could have helped you i could have saved you i could have taken your pain worn it on my shoulders and took your burdens for you i could have wiped your tears away poured the ***** down the drain locked up the shotgun and sang you to sleep only in the morning you would still be there i could have done something different i could have done something better i could have been there for you i could have fixed what made you hurt and made you forget about it i could have held your hand let you cry to me soothed your aching heart with comforting words and taken you away from everything that changed you maybe if i did you would still be here the same mistakes of idleness and the same outcome the same sharp sorrow and tortuous guilt the same irreplaceable loss that i couldn’t stop the same **** words that float in my head enough times that i convince myself they’re true i could have done something different i could have done something better and because i didn’t i’m the only one left to tell myself that
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Feb 28, 2015
Feb 28, 2015 at 6:57 PM UTC
nine years
i could have done something different i could have done something better i could have helped you i could have saved you i could have taken your pain worn it on my shoulders and took your burdens for you i could have wiped your tears away poured the ***** down the drain locked up the shotgun and sang you to sleep only in the morning you would still be there i could have done something different i could have done something better i could have been there for you i could have fixed what made you hurt and made you forget about it i could have held your hand let you cry to me soothed your aching heart with comforting words and taken you away from everything that changed you maybe if i did you would still be here the same mistakes of idleness and the same outcome the same sharp sorrow and tortuous guilt the same irreplaceable loss that i couldn’t stop the same **** words that float in my head enough times that i convince myself they’re true i could have done something different i could have done something better and because i didn’t i’m the only one left to tell myself that
#suicide#pain#abuse#loss#relationships#guilt#grief#self-hatred#self-loathing#self-blame
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Feb 28, 2015
Feb 28, 2015 at 6:57 PM UTC
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