Dec 2014
Hating yourself is a level
that takes a lot of pain to achieve.
To truly hate yourself, your whole life
must be swollen with bad memories.
Reliving old pain is another
level of pain that cannot be escaped.
People who relive their pain feel
that they deserve to hurt...but that's not true.
No one should hate themselves,
no matter what has happened in their life.
Every person walking the earth is
special in some way and is needed.
When someone decides that they
aren't needed, then they have decided
to stop looking at the people around them
and seeing just how many people truly care.
Depression is the monster that
sleeps under so many people's beds.
It haunts dreams and tortures the mind.
Depression is something that can ****.
Saying all of this has been hard for me because
I've struggled with everything on this list.
Depression, Suicide, Anxiety and so many other
things that affect the mind has happened to me.
Never knowing when it's going to hit is the worst part.
One day is great and the next is a sunken ship
full of heartache, tears and torment.
But, it can be fixed.
I believe that everyday you have a choice.
Everyday can be a happy one.
It's hard sometimes to try and fake the happiness
but after a while...you don't have to fake it.
I love my life and even though I've struggled with
mind crushing depression, terrible anxiety and even the
thoughts of suicide,
I still wake up everyday and am thankful for my life.
I used to believe in god and a few other religions for a while,
but every time I prayed for help...Help didn't come.
I don't say this to anger or upset anyone who is religious.
I say this because it can be done ON YOUR OWN!
I've never been to the point to attempt suicide, but
I've thought about it.
I came back from that and more
and I just hope that maybe sharing this could help someone
who is now in those shoes.
I am so grateful for my life and
all the things each day brings.
Each day I want to help someone else because I know
that sometimes all you want is for someone to care.
I care and I want to help whenever I can.
Just know that someone cares.
that takes a lot of pain to achieve.
To truly hate yourself, your whole life
must be swollen with bad memories.
Reliving old pain is another
level of pain that cannot be escaped.
People who relive their pain feel
that they deserve to hurt...but that's not true.
No one should hate themselves,
no matter what has happened in their life.
Every person walking the earth is
special in some way and is needed.
When someone decides that they
aren't needed, then they have decided
to stop looking at the people around them
and seeing just how many people truly care.
Depression is the monster that
sleeps under so many people's beds.
It haunts dreams and tortures the mind.
Depression is something that can ****.
Saying all of this has been hard for me because
I've struggled with everything on this list.
Depression, Suicide, Anxiety and so many other
things that affect the mind has happened to me.
Never knowing when it's going to hit is the worst part.
One day is great and the next is a sunken ship
full of heartache, tears and torment.
But, it can be fixed.
I believe that everyday you have a choice.
Everyday can be a happy one.
It's hard sometimes to try and fake the happiness
but after a while...you don't have to fake it.
I love my life and even though I've struggled with
mind crushing depression, terrible anxiety and even the
thoughts of suicide,
I still wake up everyday and am thankful for my life.
I used to believe in god and a few other religions for a while,
but every time I prayed for help...Help didn't come.
I don't say this to anger or upset anyone who is religious.
I say this because it can be done ON YOUR OWN!
I've never been to the point to attempt suicide, but
I've thought about it.
I came back from that and more
and I just hope that maybe sharing this could help someone
who is now in those shoes.
I am so grateful for my life and
all the things each day brings.
Each day I want to help someone else because I know
that sometimes all you want is for someone to care.
I care and I want to help whenever I can.
Just know that someone cares.
If you need someone to talk to please message me. I want to help anyone who needs it. Don't bottle it up because that stuff always comes back to haunt you.
