I am still here
I am still waiting
In sorrow
Depression
Confusion
Lack of understanding
Anxiety
Hope
All echoing in the pieces of my broken heart
Waiting for a continued hello
Waiting for the furthering and strengthening of a friendship
For something
Anything
To see if there will be any words at all
Even if those words only end up being good bye
Or, if there is only more silence
For, even though the words spoken have said so much
They have also said so little
But there were still words
Now, the only words are mine
I’ve said all I know to say
Everything that I feel
In every way that I know how
But, all that returns to me is silence
Echoing back to me my own words
Magnified by my doubts and fears
Causing me to wonder...
Have I said it all right?
Have I said it all wrong?
Have I said everything I can?
Have I said too much?
Or, have I said nothing at all?
Are the words I have said
In so many ways
No different than silence?
Am I not trying hard enough?
Or, am I trying too hard?
Right now, all I can think about is you
All I can write about is you
All my worries
Fears
Doubts
Hopes
Wishes
They are all you
But…
As much as I can hope
Wish
Pray
Maybe the best thing I can do
Is what feels like the worst thing I could possibly do
Maybe the best way to try is not to try
Maybe the best thing to do is nothing
The only thing left for me to say is good bye
Even so
I am still here
I am still waiting