Some nights, I am fine
and the candles stay
put away
on their shelves

and I gulp my
instant coffee,
watch a
funny
tv show

and some nights,
the candles are
burning
and the wax is dripping
on the floor

where  I can't take a
gulp,
a drink,
a sip,
and the tv
remote
will change
nothing.

some nights
it's like
I never
lost you

and some nights
I feel
*I went
with you.