3am and I want a cigarette and for someone to hold me as I keep in mind that I will survive this, and I will never be the only one awake in the world. it's all ******* beautiful but things are getting weird. I spend hours imagining the perspective of how the asphalt suffers; I would guess it feels something like I do, or at least how I used to. the cracks in the road expand with the frozen water. useless and dangerous, they are the cracks in my head. the only one driving is insanity I watched it crash, **** the earth's humanity