For awhile I was mad. And although Heaven was on your lips, I didn't understand why tears were the only things you wanted to taste. I see you, darling, with that cigarette resting between your fingers and baring a little less gleam in your eyes. Don't ask me how do I feel. The last time felt anything you were easing out of my bedroom and I wanted to commit suicide. Give me my smile back, I need it more than I need you. You hid it in your "Thing I used to love" box along with your thigh-high school skirt and bubblegum lipgloss. And tell me, am I still a resident at the back of your mind? Do I hold some place in your crowed heart along with the other peoples whose names you've forgotten? For awhile I was mad. Maybe I'm just healing.