My head hurts
It keeps throbbing
I feel tears building up behind my eyes
Waiting to rain down
Because of everything I've kept inside
The vision of them yelling at me
I never let it phase me on the outside
The thought of disappointing
Always crosses my mind
Banging my head on a white wall
Watching my body become bruised
Let me resemble the cosmos
Maybe if I had an expanding everlasting mind
I wouldn't be so caught up on the fact
I could never finish on time
If I were a unconscious entity
It wouldn't bother me
Please leave me alone
In my effort to become something other then me
I can't hold out much longer
An endless struggle against myself
It's all in my head the doctors tell me
But is it still when these thoughts manifest
Into actions that affect my reality
My head won't stop throbbing
How do I ask for help
When everything is wrong
I'm sorry I just wanted to be something else
Hot salty tears against my cheek
Another night spent battling my own mind
I just want to be like the galaxy