Oh His name was Joshua...
The simple task of writing his name is hard....
Oh Joshua he had more value then I had realized...
He had left me...
Time and time again...
I tried so hard to hold on....
To make everything right....
I swore we were meant to be....
I still believe....
Our memories were in to large of quantity to let go...
Oh yes....
There were bad memories.....
But oh yes....
There were good ones as well...
The bad all came pouring down one after another....
He had left...
He returned....
Leaving me more confused then ever....
I don't think he knew that I had cried everyday without him....
So I thought he'd leave me again so....
I cut...
Putting cuts where only I could see....
Then when he left again just as I suspected...
They got  deeper and they got visible...
Oh but don't get me wrong...
Somewhere between the cuts and the tears...
We shared some beautiful moments...
How he'd stare at me...
How he'd make me laugh for no good reason....
How he made it seem like he wasn't in his own pain...
How he hid his scars...His pain....
How he'd hug me....
How we had kissed and both feeling what I believe to be the feeling...
Of Soul-Mates....
We shared our laughter...
We shared the pain....
We shared love...
Though I always thought of his love to be lies...
There were times I believed....
There were days I had cried....
There were days he wish he had....
But in the end Joshua Is gone and I remain here alone...
Still thinking of him even after all this time....