together we grew, but you left before I was done. hopped over a boundary a wall that kept you from me. I still looked for you saw you when I could, but time wore on and you came less. you cut out the day that celebrated our relationship, our difference. and now, when you should've been home, you stay away again. instant confusion swirled with pain are baked with pie in oven. anger results, mother cries, father sits and comforts, as the bearer of bad news. mind numb, heart pounding resounding desbelief do my ears deceive? what happened? what have you done? why? questions pour from lips faster than thoughts themselves can form them. to this moment, I cannot tell your condition cannot assist in your struggle... but above all... I still don't know why every day you suffer in your self-induced agony and I don't think you know that every hour of your torment is a lifetime for me. and I still can't know whether by needle or by spoon this medicine is always bitter. please Victoria big sister just this once come home