In this moment I feel as if I am falling, Into a prison from nowhere, I see my shadow arabesque as I watch my reflection appear In a river of never abating madness- Hiding from all that is real, Moments have passed since I lay upon A cold metal table, Drifting off to sleep, and Upon awakening- I remember nothing, except for The sensation of falling From nowhere into nothingness- As I watch the sun rising, Outside of a picture window, I find myself alive in some different place in time. I feel my heart pounding As is it were trying to escape From a prison of iron bars inside of my chest, as My brain spins about As it were riding a horse on a merry-go βround, Itβs motor somehow Rapidly accelerating As that horse bobs up and down Exacerbating my fear- I hear myself screaming In the midst of deadly silence- The sun has now risen high over the mountains outside. Within my utmost fantasies, I am climbing my own mountain, Hoping to reach the sky although I cannot escape that merry-go-round of terror- Except that I know now I cannot hide from all that is real, I shall never touch the sky and as I find myself falling off of this make believe mountain- I can see my shadow more clearly and As I fall into a river of my fantasies, I swim to the bank of this river from nowhere, Leaving the madness behind-