And so I spent that morning trying to decipher my dream. He was terrified and didn't believe in forever; however, I had a soft spot for hard boiled eggs and I liked the smell of gun smoke. Mostly, I was growing tired of living vicariously through my pet rock. Also, he intrigued me. Silence was his coping mechanism and I had a silent understanding of that. I deviated from my calculations because his optic nerve was inadequate and he saw the world upside down. I wanted that for myself. I was willing to gamble on that. It may have proven that it was my sole purpose in life to serve as a warning to others. But I was willing to gamble on that.