So here we are,
After a whole year- here we are.
And i want to make these words as beautiful as possible,
But i don't think i have the time.

You said to me,
"How do you know? You've never been to hell."
and i laughed
it was so funny,
maybe it was the drugs,
or the drinks,
but sober or not i still laugh.
Because i have, in fact, been to hell.
The one you put me in when you left.

One person can have more of an effect on you than one thousand,
My mom walked in with the house up in smoke,
I got everything taken but i am not sad,
Do you wish to know why i am not sad?
You

After one whole year nothing was different.
You're hair,
Wish you asked me if i liked,
Of course i do.

I am  exhausted,
After not sleeping for three days,
After not eating for two,
Hit after hit after hit,
Shot after shot after shot,
I cannot lay in my bed,
I can't lie in my bed because you were the last one in it.
I can't disrupt the beauty in that.