rubbing my rummy red eyes against the harsh hard light of morning last nights laughs and loves gone cold and bitter staining the satin sheets we shared.
i woke up alone wondering
if you were really ever there if anything really happened or if the drink finally seeped into my head and conjured up a wild night leaving me laughing alone in the dark naming the shadows and whispering sweet garbled nothings to no one.
i would like to believe my own imagination would be kinder but i know differently. straining the grindings out of day old coffee i wonder where you have gone to what your doing and where you are....
but i know the danger and the foolishness of such thoughts so i toss them away along with the dead soldiers of last nights wild war sweeping up the leavings helping along the hobbling thoughts that last night was a dream and you were never there at all.