Nimble fingers break apart green stems And I watch them as diligently as I watch him Twirl ebony strands between his fingers Nervously Anxiously Waiting. I'm waiting for your call and he's waiting for his texts And I'm questioning reality as my pink nicotine fingers type words That stream from my broken mind It hurts tonight. Teeth tell stories and lies And I realize I am unlovable. Not because of you, Or the others before But because I am unloved by myself.
Skinny necks hold sturdy heads Blonde hair covers red scalps Scratched and torn apart from stress of deadlines and tests He's not on your mind right now.
I take drags knowing they blacken my tongue Making my words unrecognized even by myself And I wonder where I am and when I should be home
We all want more We need less This world is something with answers that I feel should be left unsaid.
Stories told by tainted hearts Questioning myself Questioning my heart