a few years back i used to cry in front of a mirror
so i could see how puffy my face would get
or how red my eyes would become
in order to determine how pretty i truly was

my first (and only) boyfriend texted me and said
"i'm going through a lot, let's take a break"
he's been dating a girl who was my friend for three years now
but we're still on a break, aren't we?

there are eight empty boxes of halloween candy Smarties
scattered around my computer right now
my garbage can is filled with wrappers
i wasn't even hungry

why hasn't anyone ever loved me?
i mean, i have good musical taste
and i care so much about people
maybe too much, i don't know

my sister is the favourite
i mean, she's a lawyer so, makes sense
she's going to NYC
maybe i can be the favourite then