Ever since you left I haven't wanted to feel anything except fire because you lit one in me and then decided you didn't like the way it felt so you didn't want to stick around to take care of it So I drink to feel the burning in my throat I smoke to feel the burning in my lungs I cry to feel the burning on my cheeks I am trying to use what you began to start a forest fire within myself spreading out of control until there is nothing left until I extinguish every part of you But no matter how much I burn it doesn't help I am turning myself to ash one bad decision at a time But I'm hoping that maybe once I've burned myself up I will rise again as a phoenix and maybe then my tears will be able to heal me