i just want to know if it's karma
maybe in reverse
telling me i am going to do something
so very wrong soon
which is why right now
nothing is right
i just want to be happy
and not so entangled with sadness
and not so enraged by everyone smiling
i just feel alone because i chose that
im trying so hard to do everything right
but it's not okay
so i run away
down seven flights of stairs
down every dark alley
until i feel alive
or dead
i just don't know which one i want anymore
and i wasn't afraid and my heart wasn't broken
but you got everything you wanted
and im still hoping