I don't love him but he's here and you aren't And he doesn't ******* hold my hand, all he does is **** me And god forbid that god forbids you from being near me Because when I see nothing but headlights and tire tread I think of salvation
I will hold onto you tighter than my father when he came home and told me I'd hate him We don't speak anymore except about the time you were supposed to kiss me but instead I felt my jaw shatter And he still wishes his fist could've done the same to yours as a 16th birthday present for me But I guess you've never liked my voice so why would you wanna hear it
My tongue falls back into my throat like words I've choked on in front of you If you came back, even as a dream, I would fill half a glass and let you decide if I'm emptier I have the audacity to think I meant something more to you than to your temper And I never needed a lighter to play with fire when baby, I had you
I fear fences because the one in my front yard couldn't keep your voice out I'd gate off my mind but I'm sure I'd still fear January the 1st and I might even miss you I always loved your hands even when they were breaking me Even if they've made me flinch at a raised hand or a friendly pat on the back
I ******* hated the roadmaps in your arms because they couldn't guide me out of your grasp I knew you were dangerous but I was excited by the fear of getting caught with you
I told you, "I am too ******* young."
And I felt more electricity in your fist hitting my cheekbones than I ever had in your lips Even when I lay my sorrowed mind on his silk sheets I cannot fall asleep anymore