Some things were meant to be when I lost you. I thought I could love another man after  I lost you. I tried to carry on but my life ended when when  you died and my heart broke in two when I had to say good bye to you. I tried to love again, but I could not love again after you. He was to needy wanting to much affection from me . Affection I could not give and all he ever thought was about *** and he was not much of a gentleman. He was not a kind and loving as you and I could not love him true. My whole world fell apart the day I took you off life support and watch you died in front of very eyes. I still can not let you go and I  still can not say good bye because it hurts me so. He lied and cheated on me and left me to die by myself. Something you would never do.
Still can't go on without you but I am trying hard and praying hard that   we will be together in God's Kingdom together. I miss you so and all I can do is cry and remember all the good times we had together. I wish you could come back to me but I know you can't. I am waiting to come to you but everyone is trying to stop me from doing so. I am not same after I lost you. I love you too much still.