Pondering ways to escape Trying to stop my mind from mulling over the ways that I'm trapped In this cage of circumstance Brain bruised from overthinking Waking up in the middle of the night heart beating faster than cars speeding on the freeway I dreamt again about leaving But it's not so simple Reality is harsher than a dream Glimpses of wishes behind closed eyelids don't mean a thing When truth forces you to take in the facts surrounding you I'm stuck The merest wish upon a star is irrelevant if the sky is starless I find myself looking left and right for guidance Looking up to stop to the tears from falling and looking down in case they do I have no clue How to unbury my feet from the mud Caked up from years of second guessing And worrying if what I did would be enough Tired of waking up disappointed as realization hits like a newly bloomed flower being crushed by the weight of a brick When I understand my dream is just a dream And I haven't yet been given the key To unlock my happiness .