you asked me why i didn't want you anymore
why i stopped answering your calls after that one night on the couch when all you did was try to make me feel wanted
why i wasn't letting you fix me
why i got angry when you tried to show how much you cared
why i needed a different boy to touch me every night to keep me from crying
why you weren't enough
why when you told me you loved me all i could say was "i'm sorry"
why i didn't care that i was hurting you
why i was no longer the girl you fell for
why i built walls around my mind so no one could get in
why i wouldn't break down those walls for you
why i hated so passionately when i could be loving
why i make the sky gray even when it is blue
i asked you why you thought you loved me
why you said you couldn't live without me yet there you stood without me, your heart beating at a steady pace
why you thought a girl that didn't want to accept your sick idea love just needed to be loved harder
why you were trying to analyze my every move as if you could ever figure me out
why you felt i should belong to you
why you thought me not wanting you was because i would never want anybody
why you thought all the boys i was with were only there to help me cover up a pain i felt inside and not because i wanted them there
why you thought the answer to everything was that i'm ****** up
why you felt you did nothing wrong to ever make me not want you around
why you thought when i said that i was yours i meant you could touch me even when i said no
why you thought you could put your hands on me and hurt me and blame me for the physical and mental pain you were causing me
why you felt i needed to stay because saying "but i love you" justified what you did to me
why you let me make your perfect blue sky gray