I've come to the conclusion that I must focus on God
Not a man, not myself, not those dysfunctional family members whose problems I try to solve but never can
God- the source of strength, peace, and love
Whose blessings have gone by without a bat of my eye
I missed all those opportunities to be grateful
I missed out on my joy choosing to focus on secular situations that were a subtractive force in my life
I've come to the conclusion that I must first love God in the way He loves me- unconditionally, irrespective of my faults
Focusing on the word of God allows me to feel security in knowing that he will never let me down
As I pray for those that need His mercy, that too takes the burden off of me, as I relinquish control and let Him do his thing.
I give it all to God- my insecurities, my worries, my fears
I am no longer in control of my life, I am a vessel for his Glory