Isn't it fun Finding out your cousin is in the hospital That you probably won't get to see your only friends 8 hours away Because you may be attending a funeral For a guy you grew up with Who's only twenty Who may need a heart transplant Or who may not live long enough to get his name on the list Who you've always seen every thanksgiving, every Christmas, Who you played football with and ate fried oysters And you can't talk to anyone about how you wish you had at least the semblance of normality in your life Because they'd think you're complaining about the inconvenience of your cousins funeral Instead of what was really happening About everything building up And me not being able to deal with it And me not being able to sleep at night And me not being able to talk to anyone Because I've never made a real friend And the only people who have to care about me Are fading out faster than the light in my eyes And I don't really have much And he has a whole life And a girl friend And real friends And why couldn't it have been me?