I'm never sure I love you,
Until the moment I have to be without,
The moment you can't handle me.
The moment that I realize that what I did,
Is killing you.

Please know I love you,
Even in the moment I've gone without,
That moment you can no longer handle me,
That moment when you can't pretend that what I did,
Isn't killing you.

How could you care so much for me?
When I do this again and again?
When I've degraded myself to the point,
That I am nothing but garbage?

I love you,
And nothing I say is an excuse.
Nothing I say should be.
I care so much about you,
And I don't know how you could forgive me.
I wouldn't blame you if you couldn't.
I can't.

I can't forgive myself.
I led someone on without meaning to,
And I let what was precious to me,
Be stolen once again.

The burden on my shoulders,
Grows heavier with every step I take.
The knowledge that even you couldn't stay,
That you couldn't handle this,
That I love you.
I love you,
I love you,
I love you.
Please don't go.