All these words to make you see how much you mean to me
All these phrases to make you feel how much I feel for you
All these unsaid sentences to make you realize how much I want you
         Mean complete ****.
so i grabbed onto you and held
trying to diffuse everything i was feeling into your skin
hiding them in every concrete and crumbling part of you
the parallel curved lines that was your smile
and the crinkled part of your elbow that told me your secrets
i told you the voices weren't real
letting you cry hot tears onto my hair
in hopes they'd burn my skin and scar your name
i gazed into your eyes as you laid atop me
holding my arms in the position of passion
your breath smelt of sin and i knew that this was my dream
multi-colored delusions that we shared in the silence of your house
a house that was my escape to you
an excuse to hold you close
i dreamed of you touching my lines, my indented skin
and tell me I was beautiful
but your gaze was hazy so you couldn't see me
your words slurred and collided until your truthful lies came out
and i drank away your sorrows
drove away your rejection
in hopes you'd one day love me
but the trash has been taken out
and i am alone in the shower with the door unlocked
waiting, waiting
for you to knock on the door