I wish I fell in love with you when I was five
When my eyes first opened to a life of
Meaningless routine and a system that killed
Inspiration but did not harm my hope

I wish I fell in love with you when I was eleven
When the world showed its opinion of me
Just being me, when I had to showcase my flaws without my consent
A flower picked out of the ground before it had the time to bloom

I wish I fell I love with you when I was nineteen
When I cared so much about that opinion of others
Flesh meant more than feelings, when I needed someone
To believe in

I wish I fell in love with you when I was twenty-one
When my world collapse and I needed to rebuild
When I started my journey to find out why and where
When I needed a confirmation that I was worth it

Now I hope you’ll stay, my past calls on you
My concerns will not need
When I first dreamt about you I knew it was over
Confess-----I won’t’ blame you