there's nothing like being young and starving, living in a roominghouse and pretending to be a writer while other men are occupied with their professions and their possessions. there's nothing like being young and starving, listening to Brahms, your belly ******-in, nary an ounce of fat, stretched out on the bed in the dark, smoking a rolled cigarette and working on the last bottle of wine, the sheets of your writing strewn across the floor. you have walked on and across them, your masterpieces, and either they'll be read in hell, or perhaps gnawed at by the curious mice. Brahms is the only friend you have, the only friend you want, him and the wine bottle, as you realize that you will never be a citizen of the world, and if you live to be very old you still will never be a citizen of the world. the wine and Brahms mix well as you watch the lights move across the ceiling, courtesy of passing automobiles. soon you'll sleep and tomorrow there certainly will be more masterpieces.