If only
if only,
I could take my
own hands.
If only
if only,
I could
reach into my
cranium.
Hold what has stopped me
and what is
*******
with my relationships.
Rarely,
they don't mind.
But if you do,
I cannot say I blame you.
How do I sleep?
I don't.
I can't.
It stops me.
And I pray before I lay.
It hasn't stopped you.
But if Lord and stars
refuse my prayer,
I will then just
hope
you are not
gone.