My heart is numb...
   because of you
My soul is numb...
   because of you
I'm unable to laugh...
   because of you
I'm unable to smile...
   because of you
I can't feel emotion, happy or sad...
   because of you
But yet I reach for you...  a tiny white pill, sparkling brightly in my hand...  You promise me relief, and I believe you...
The bottle is full,
so I take one, then another
I cannot get enough of you...
I'm slipping into the gentle, safe place I've so longed for...
Floating above myself, coddled by the soft warm air swirling around my naked body...
The last breath leaves my lungs...
My eyes close, for the final time...
Am I alive?
Does it matter?
The pain is gone...
   *because of you