I could spin you tales of new-found health
Or of my rediscovered desire for the wealth
Of life, and all it has to give
But I could never lie to you.

I may be free but I'm still so shaky
In my goals and my life and being free
The notion of dreaming to forgive
Myself for all I've been through.

It's unfamiliar and now I sit the same
Aching, shivering, and calling your name
I suppose I don't know how to live
I'm scared I won't pull through.