I am beginning to get this new feeling.
I don't have much of a way to describe it.
But it's this combination of love and compassion -- wanting to help others.
Mixed with this craving of being alone and giving a rudeness to all.

Recently I think I've found myself,
but I'm sad to admit that I don't like the people I am.

I have found that I am two entirely different persons.
I am a walking hypocrite.

I'll catch myself doing something that later I will judge others for.

One of me is kind, caring and wanting to make a difference.
But the other wants to leave behind all of this and get away from everyone.

Why can't I find my happy medium?

There's a devil and an angel making my decisions but why can't I find the body that fits between that makes the right decision for me.

Why can't I do what's right for me?
What do I want though?

Who am I?