I never thought I could hurt you
being such a strong person,
it didn't occur to me you cared
enough that staying was an option.

Day after day here I stand
watching you stare up at me
from behind your friends laughing
and I hear all the things I
never had the guts to say.

Hold me tight, be my brightest light
come on moonlight tell me things
might be alright. I didn't try to
hurt you, I swear I didn't.

you took my heart away
when you walked to the other
tables, my mouth said just go
I wish you had heard
my heart whispering please stay.

Everyone said that it was ok
they smiled and wanted me to join,
I think it actually hurts them
when I cry. I just never noticed
you bleeding when I cut
and I never thought you could be
my knight in shining armor.

And here I am now, in the library
looking through the shelves
running my hands over the black
sharpie on the bottom of fiction,
"My Midnight Starlight Forever"

such a unique name,
only ever from you to me,
such a painful thought
tears sliding down,
oh what a sight to see.

People watch me
they ask if I'm okay.
Voices haunting making me
wish that I begged you to stay.

I didn't mean to **** us
or the person we became,
but I couldn't stand you leaving
and coming to hurt me, then
leave only to come back again.

Someone had to end the chain,
to be the red stop sign, and I
guess I hurt so bad and fell
too far to try again or again.

I love you as a friend,
I hate you as a soul,
I miss you as a love
and
I am sorry,
I forgot you as a friend...