I'm falling into a hole.
And I'm not quite sure how deep it is,
I'm having trouble finding what I need
And I know I can't get out on my own.
I'm never really happy.
Something always tends to go wrong.
Usually, I can hide it,
But it seems like now, it's becoming more difficult.
A task that I cannot bear any longer.
I'm trying to create a new me.
A new life, a new soul.
It's working..
But am I happy with it?
Usually, when something goes wrong,
It's covered by something right.
And I'm happy for that,
But not happy enough to hide what really hurt me in the first place.
I wanna be alone,
But I want him in my life.
I wanna experience what's out there,
But I can't let him go.
I wanna quit.
But it means so much, how can I let it be deceased?
I've been in routine for so long,
You'd think starting new, would be a good thing,
Right?
Well, that's at least what I thought.
I'm falling into a hole,
And I'm not quite sure how deep that hole may be.
I'm trying to get out,
Can anyone help me?
I'm so lost,
So struck by the world.
Temptations overwhelming me.
I can't say 'no'
But I need to.
But I can't.
I want too,
No, I should.
I need to remain strong.
But I'M not strong.
I thought I was, but I'm breaking.
And I can't deal with it.
I dug this hole.
And I can't get out..
And at the moment,
I don't think I ever will.