This morning you asked me something
and I really didn't want to answer you
because it made me feel like a horrible person.

You asked if I was trying to push you away
like I did to everyone else at school,
you know I do it because you've seen it happen
and my make up started to run down my face.

"I don't try to," I said, "It just happens."
which is true, but I think some people
I wanted to more than I should be proud to say.

You, you are not one of them though,
which is why I am here writing something else
just for you, trying to make up for my mistakes
and as always, it's just too little, too late.


I'm just so confused.



I'm so sorry..