The evenings never flow, never dissolve like cigarette smoke, they are a torture party for invisible forces that howl in my head, reminding me of my loss and- what feels like their perpetual victory.
Only hours ago you were counting the notches of my spine, you were whispering love and grabbing handfuls of my hair, I bit your ear, you scratched my arm, we made a melodious war for guaranteed peace.
I think of you often, a prisoner of disjointed sheets, your amber eyes, seeking foreign dreams in mine.
I swallow my longing to run back, only to rest my head against a pillow that smells heavily of your perfume.