Were you ever my friend, my lover
I feel you betrayed me
I'm confused,
Out of control
When I stay away from you, I become weak
When I'm with you, I become sick
I try to purge you, but you come back
Can we compromise? But how?
I can't seem to live with you
I can't live without you
But I'm not ready to leave you
Fear runs through my body, as it does every morning
I step on the silver metal device on the cold floor and wait
Only you know if it will be a good day
I watch the numbers roll by, like lemons on a slot machine
I'm your prisoner, my fate is in your hands
I look down slowly, as I hold my breath, the numbers stopped moving....
"99" displays brightly
I'm still in control!
I smile...  you did good, you did good