Once I possessed vibrancy I embodied light I lit the world anew with color bending the spectrum With wit, a queen of metaphor, With all the warmth a world could stand
Once I held captive the eyes of everyone I passed My hips transformed faces to Christmas lights strung together aglow in my presence, blinking contentment I did all the rising a person could do I penetrated people in new ways daily
Once I was vague with beauty It just swelled up inside of me In ways I couldn’t define And my fingers typed it out And my mouth spat it into the earth And trees would grow birthing fruit Blessed with youth
Once I was a woman of meaning With aspiration with depth of a soul (I thought it was my birthright) that could split atoms into betterness zapped to life minus the bitterness
Once I meant more to me And thought ovens were for baking Lived separate from isolation Once I didn’t walk, I floated And you could read it off the page And if you read it, you got me instantly and we were one
Once I could separate pleasure and pain I thought college was a place of learning Love was a possibility And when I read Vonnegut I thought he was beautifully dark And not beautifully honest.
Once I could figure out a way to end this poem With grace, with punctuation And elegance Without rambling on About who I used to be.