I'm a wreck I'm ****** I stare in the mirror wishing it was a truck I want the headlights in my blue eyes I want to sleep with her in my arms tonight ******* it this ***** I'm friendless here I'm drunk here I'm faded and jaded misplaced and disgraced I want a fresh start I want a new brain With less thoughts and feelings less staring at the ceiling Lately all I can imagine is Eddie and Ryan and Alyssa she hung herself Ryan ODed Eddie in a car crash Grandpa Jerry in surgery Grandma Cherry in her sleep Grandpa Con soon after Eddie's retreat Come on Death, give me a break or give me a grave or give me another beer so I can disappear