And what happens When I finally tell you That I was too ashamed to admit That I dreamt up your face When his lips touched mine And I auto-tuned his voice In my head until it was A duplicate of yours And that I traced his skin But somehow my sensory memory Defied the rules and I Flashed back to seven years ago When your arm was around my waist And what happens When you're not here Anymore and my words are too Late And I end up engaged, or God, married To this man because I keep pretending he's you
And I keep telling him That he has my whole heart But I think we both know The truth That it's always belonged to you And that, To be honest, I don't ever want it back
Because in seven years time, I've realized that it is so much easier To sleep at night To breathe in winter To sigh in his arms When I can't feel a ****** thing at all And maybe I'm lying to him And maybe that's ****** up…