i failed.

i left when she asked me to stay.
i stayed when she asked me to leave.

shot up when i knew better.
drank when i knew she would get mad.

worked too many jobs.
loved too much.

didn't teach.
didn't listen.

i failed at understanding the signals
when devotion got in the way.

when hedonism calls
don't answer.

it's never good news.

i could've made it work.
we could've made it work.

it's just that the logistics were irreprehensible.

i missed a call.
you made me late.

we were having too much fun.
i was having too much fun.

i don't know what you were having.

it surely wasn't in my future.
in any sense.

i failed at taking the right job.
the wrong job.

any job.

you were my biggest job.