What am I doing really i feel like I'm stuck I either like him or I don't but I just don't know how I even feel

He is my boyfrind but am I wasting my time? I feel like I am like I'm doing everything wrong but why is it I feel so stupid for listening to your fake words

Now I realise how I fell in love it wasn't you I fell in love with it was your fake words and how they made me feel inside